The following post is by Christine Duncan as part of the Life-Changing Scriptures for Writers Project.
I had just been given a diagnosis for an invisible illness that had plagued me for almost 28 years: Early Onset Dysthymic Disorder, also known as chronic depression. And although there was relief in finally knowing I was not a just horrible, moody person incapable of high functioning but someone with a disability, I found myself saying, “Where do I go from here, Lord?”
Turns out there were many others who also thought they were alone, incapable of living a normal life. The more people I spoke to, the more I felt the Spirit saying it was time to shine a light on this illness. I immediately thought of my blogging platform. How could I explain how God was my anchor during the rough seas of this disorder in a way that educated and ministered? Then one morning, I opened my Bible to Psalm 119:92- 93 (NIV). The answer stared back. The psalmist was describing me!
“If Your law had not been my delight, I would have perished in my affliction. I will never forget Your precepts, for by them You have preserved my life!”
The very things that make Him God preserve my life, no matter what my disorder does. I had a title now for such a blog, Precepts and Life Preservers, but to make sure this was a God-thing, and not just me, I prayed, asking Him to confirm my calling in a way that could only be Him.
And the very next night an acquaintance, not knowing I had asked God for a sign, had a vision that made no sense but felt urgent. And there in a church meeting where I happened to be, this person bravely stood up and said these words: “I don’t know who this is for, but I believe this is for someone here who needs to hear from God. There’s been a vision. It’s of a raging stormy sea. And there’s a boat in the middle of the sea, with some people who’ve been rescued, wearing life preservers. And the most remarkable thing is that the people seated at the edge of the boat in their preservers are leaning out and away. They are stretching out a hand . . . and grasping hold of someone without a life jacket, keeping them from drowning in the waves. And those people then reach a hand out, and so on. God wants you to know that it’s time to reach out and allow who He is to keep everyone afloat.”
I began to weep, and also laugh to myself. I had asked for confirmation. Could it have been any clearer? I tear up just remembering that holy moment.
I pasted that scripture above my work desk, keeping it as my focus for whatever I write, and my blogging journey began a week later. Never doubt God when you feel called, or led. He’s weaving every detail in order to prove His plans for our calling. Allow Him to lead, and you will not be disappointed. His precepts will preserve your life, and then some.
Christine Duncan (http://www.preceptsandlifepreservers.com) Blogging about mental health and faith, I’m also a mom, a wife, and a true Canuck. I’d love to connect via
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